Day 3 — Your parents
Sunday, October 10, 2010 @ 9:24 PM / 0 comment(s)Firstly, mum and dad, i hope you never find this blog. Okay, i'll start now:
Dear mum,
Despite all the arguments we've had, the number of times i've tried to hold a grudge against you and when i just ignore you, we're still pretty close with each other. I have realised i can't hold a grudge against anyone for a very long time. I have tried numerous time to hold a grudge against you but i can never seem to make it last very long. Before i know it we're back to normal again, communicating perfectly as if nothing had happened.
I just want to thank you, in this letter you will probably never read, for always being there for me. When you ask me to help you with chores, i know i shouldn't complain, it's not even close to the help and care you've given me over these number of years. Sometimes i do take you for granted making you do most of the work by yourself, and for that, i'm extremely sorry.
Though, i would appreciate if you stopped picking at my faults all the time and comparing me with others. Yes i know i'm not that smart, not that healthy and very lazy but you don't need to tell me repeatedly over and over again. I'm sorry if i've disappointed you many times in the past, but i really do try. Maybe i'm not trying hard enough, but you should know, at least i do try. But all in all, i really do appreciate the things you have done for me. The things i do wish you stop doing, well, i guess they're part of the roles of being mothers huh? :) And i know i shouldn't complain, i'm not exactly the perfect daughter you want, but, nobody's perfect and your daughter will definitely not be. I'm one of the most imperfect people in the world, but i know you still love me and i know despite everything i say to you when i'm in anger, i love you. ♥
Dear dad,
You're the main reason i can put up with mum's exaggerations. You always defend me and that is something i really love about you. Even when i don't do well in tests, it still amazes me how you can still have so much faith that i can do better in the next one. No matter what, you still believe i tried my best and still believe in me.
You don't know how bad i feel when you tell me that you are disappointed in me. Because i know, after all the faith you put into me, i still come home, not achieving the result you want. You don't even tell me off or be angry with me, all you do is look at me sadly and say that you are disappointed with me. Though it's not much, that's all it is to make me start crying. But then there are the rare days i do and you seem so happy. Thankyou for not giving up on me.
I know you always work hard but i still expect you to do a lot of things for me. I guess i do also take you for granted sometimes as well. I'm sorry. There's many things i should be sorry for, many things i've done wrong, but you always look at that and still think i'm perfect the way i am. You told me that no matter what mum thinks or anyone else thinks, i'm still perfect in your eyes :')
Sometimes i love your jokes and comments, while other times they are just lame. I still remember the incident about that childbirth video hahaha x)
But really, thankyou for never giving up on me, for believing in me and i definitely will try, to do my best. I love you dad ♥
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